Emilia's Journal

We wanted more than anything to have a baby. We spent a lot of time dreaming, hoping and planning. When we finally found out that you existed, however, our minds were elsewhere. We had just gotten back from a trip to LA to be with Matt and a very tiny Madeline- who was born almost 2 months early. Madeline’s mom, Liz, went to heaven the day after Madeline was born and we were terribly sad, since we loved her very much. It was hard to leave Matt so far away with his new baby, and without Liz. I knew that I did not get my period that week, but thought it may be due to the stress. When we got home we were very tired and collapsed into bed. I got up to go to the bathroom and decided to re-check a pregnancy test. A week earlier, I had taken a test because I had to order a bridesmaid’s dress for your Aunt Andrea’s wedding by March 20th. I knew would need a different dress if I was pregnant. The test was negative and I ordered the dress she had chosen.

This one, however, was . . .

When I got back in bed, I leaned over and whispered to your dad, “guess what? We’re having a baby.” We hugged each other and cried. We knew that Liz was somewhere smiling with us. I called and changed my dress order the next day.